When it comes to crises, my level of calm is highly situational.
If we're talking walls collapsing, apocalyptic crisis, I'm all about what the next step is. One of my trainers in the medical field called me a steamroller - I just keep plowing through.
Small crises however, like unexpected home repairs and visiting family, and I'm a crumpled mess. I have no idea why. I can only guess some of it comes from childhood conditioning, like my parents' anxiety about visits during/after some divorces in the family. That sort of stuff is never easy for anyone, and that's just the way I observed it as a kid. Luckily as an adult I can look at it and see that everything is okay now, but that habit of being tense before get-togethers is hard to break.
Some of my anxiety is just
anxiety as a disorder, which again usually rears it's ugly head over the small stuff since I often shove my feelings aside to handle the more "emergency" stuff. And look at that! I answered my own question!
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