Me neither.
I’d like to say I don’t know why this keeps happening, but the truth is, I do know. It’s my priorities.
Having a “real” career going for me has been a massive undertaking, especially since it’s in the medical field. Any of you nice people working the industry know; it’s licensing upon licensing upon licensing. Working my job, with multiple hospitals and protocols, that gets compounded by about 12.
It occupies that mental checklist pretty often, considering at least once a week something requires my attention that isn’t direct patient care.
When is my CPR/BLS due again?
My BONENT renewal needs how many education credits this year?
Which hospital needed my latest TB screening?
How long can I put off college and my RN before techs are phased out?
Should I learn to do PD or focus on honing HD?
Do I want to take the Preceptor program and train new people?
What do I need to get handled before flu season and it’s work/sleep 24/7?
I know this is my chosen path, and I actually really love what I do, so more often than not anything related to the job takes front seat both mentally and in reality.
Second place in my day goes to my little family unit - husband and the dogs.
With the “big” move, I have shifted my lifestyle at home to more of a pack leader/dog mom. Our back yard is not as sprawling as our last one, and with the extremity of the Vegas heat, our pups spend a lot more time indoors and socializing with us.
This has been a blessing and a curse, as it helps me feel less alone, but has also brought the sassy attitudes out in full force. Everything about this new home has basically put a reset on all the rules in the shepherd sisters’ minds, so each day is an opportunity to push the envelope in new and creative ways. And of course, after every reprimand is met with the lengthy, “BUT MOOOOOOM,” because I am entirely too moved by adorable doggy personality.
Husband is surprisingly busy these days with a spike in interest in Ultracades, as well as now living five minutes from a pinball hall. One of his favored colleagues in vintage gaming lives minutes away as well, so he is only ever alone by choice when I’m spending long hours at work.
The poor man has finally come to realize just how much knowledge and skill it takes to run a house and “family,” as he has tasked himself with “doing everything else he possibly can to make sure you can work as much as you need.”
Mental labor is very real, and is less problematic when living alone. Once you factor in pets or other people’s needs and messes, the juggling starts.
What’s in the fridge? What needs to be used first? What time do I need to start dinner?
Should I cook something that keeps well since person might work late?
How can I make a balanced meal with these items I need to use?
How much more of x do we have? Can we wait until it’s on sale again?
The dogs need a good grooming, can I schedule that so I can clean the house in their absence?
Oh man, the floors look kinda grimy, but it’s also gonna rain soon, should I wait to mop?
What if I do mop now, but person comes home all grimy?
I could go on and on, but I feel like most of you not-mentally-labored people get it, and those who already live in this are having a small anxiety attack about that thing you forgot until right now.
Go write the thing down before you forget!!
Unfortunately, as well-intended as he is, husband, and most normal human beings, can’t learn all of this overnight. That means I’m still juggling all the mental work while he learns/I teach him and I juggle the career demands too.
And theeeeeeen
I’m still coping with having left “everyone else” behind in California. Its an 8 hour commitment any time I want to be there, and that’s nearly all the time. I have the most beautiful, smart, and loving niece and nephew, my two “baby” sisters, MyCoz, and of course all of my family down there.
With that all laid out, I think it becomes a bit more clear why I haven’t given myself a minute once in a while to write for all you nice people, but after the hefty weight lifted by typing all this out, I think I need to put this here blog back on the list.
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