After looking back on 2014 and seeing awesome, terrible, exciting, and boring things happen, I've decided this year needs to top that. Sure, I saw a lot of America on four wheels, but I didn't see as much as I would have liked. This year, I refuse to let this stupid leg get in the way of experiencing life.
I also ran into a lot of situations that made me take a painful look at myself. I'm a pretty loud, selfish, silly, hardheaded woman. Most of the time that makes for a lot of fun. Other times it means I'm overstepping my bounds or stealing someone's thunder. I've had to learn the hard way that sometimes I need to slow down and ask questions, or sometimes just flat out shut up and listen.
I've finally caved and gotten Husband involved in my daily care. I hate asking him to help me handle anything in the realm of personal issues (hygiene, chores, medications) because it's admitting I can't do them myself. Needing someone sucks.
Things were reaching rock bottom towards the end of this year, especially when the Nana's absence markedly reared its head over the holidays. I had resigned myself to hiding in bed, accepting I was useless because I was getting nothing done, and even going so far as to hide from Sam. No one was getting snuggles. That's just not living.
So we rallied, Sam got treats, and things are looking up. Husband has started dragging me into his daily routine, waking me up during his morning coffee and checking in with me at lunch/tea time. It's going alright so far. I've even gotten as far as playing a few rounds of fetch almost daily now with all three dogs in the yard.
More importantly, This Fuckin House is really and truly clean for once, and you know what? It is quite lovely.
Even though things might suck, things are going to be on the up in 2015. Make it so!
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