Halloween

We were silly, as per usual.

Husband took a fall fairy and a kitty trick or treating, as well as Sam.

Dad, of course, was himself, which is scary enough.

I Don't Like These Feels

Season 5 Episode 20 - Sweet Surrender

We don't talk about this episode.
We don't talk about it.

The Sneakiest Injury

 Season 5 Episode 19 - Elevator Love Letter

PTSD is some terrifying shit.

I am deeply impressed with Cristina standing by Owen after almost dying at his hands. Anyone would have understood if she bailed after that incident. Meredith even threatened to kill him!

PTSD is unfortunately a somewhat mysterious territory. While doctors have begun to understand how and why it manifests, it seems that the condition affects everyone quite differently. That's the horrific part. It's a very inconsistent reactionary issue that ranges from depressive, violent, manic, to almost euphoric behaviors - all of which are maladjustments to their trauma.

While I say all this, I don't mean to instill more fear. I hope that everyone who encounters a survivor of any trauma can reach out and try to understand how confusing and scary this resulting condition can be for them. Too many people need help, and becoming isolated due to a serious medical issue is all too easy, and this is why Cristina's character deserves applause for even trying.

You Can't Discuss Your Feelings Without Lips

Season 5 Episode 18 - Stand by Me

This episode is un-fucking-believable.
Seriously?

This is what passes for legitimate medicine? Did you guys even try?
It's like they said, "Hey makeup and prosthetic departments, have a field day, writing be damned!"

First of all, I find it really hard to wrap my head around the idea of a guy being released from care with gaping holes in his face. That's just endless fluids, everywhere, all the time, and infections like woah.

And then, then they make me feel like a jerk for laughing at the poor guy, because when he speaks it's damn near perfect speech. Bro, you have no lips. Better than half of the consonant sounds in our language requires lips. Udderlise he ould e talking like dis.
Not to mention his completely absent nose would make breathing a bitch.

No.

It's a bummer, because there was a ton of potential in the story surrounding his emotional process with fear and healing.

Rude

Season 5 Episode 10 - All by Myself 

I cannot get over how rude this lady is. To a certain degree I can sympathize with her frustrations and lack of interest in her own surgery, considering that she's already suffered multiple failed attempts. I can even get behind the fear of success. She's become so accustomed to the life she has built around being mute, and even defined herself by it in her blogging career.
Despite all of my sympathy and understanding for her feelings, I still can't excuse how incredibly rude she is! She makes no effort to acknowledge, make eye contact, or even react to Mark explaining the surgery. She's mute, not deaf. Did her manners come out with her cancer?

Again, I can see how things have become cold between her and her husband. It's easy to fall into habits of neglect with the people we spend the most time with. It's so sad though. She won't look at him, won't smile, nod, no interaction. It can't be for a lack of feelings, because she sure has a lot to say in her blog, which she is endlessly typing.

Luckily it pays off when she finally gets the gusto to try speaking after a hopefully successful surgery. Seeing the loving smiles exchanged as they say hi once again is absolutely beautiful. Every time I watch this scene I catch myself smiling right along with them. :D

Y U Do Dis?

Season 5 Episode 9 - In the Midnight Hour

This is the point where Denny's ghost went from interesting to flat out corny.
Seriously? Sex? Seriously?

This is the kind of shit that makes me take this show down a notch from late-night drama to full-tilt soap opera. Bad Shonda, Bad!

Moar Hahn Hate

Season 5 Episode 6 - Life During Wartime

"Now Bailey, no one likes when a girl gets emotional."
Sexist much?
I will punch Hahn, so hard, so many times, with my words. AAAGGGH.
She's an incredible hypocrite, holding everyone to standards that she is apparently immune to. What's even more aggravating is no one ever calls her out on this bullshit. (Okay Bailey schools her pretty nicely.)

Everything is black and white in Hahn's world, consisting of what suits her, and what doesn't. Anything that falls into the latter category is just the dumbest, most terrible thing ever and can be nothing but absolutely wrong. This spills into Episode 7 - Rise Up when she has her big break up with Callie over the heart patient and her unsureness about her bisexuality.

I'm not saying she's wrong for being pissed about the donor situation - she most definitely is - but she twists it into this vindictive, personal issue and splashes it on everyone else. In my mind, her dismissal of Callie's sexuality was the nail in the coffin. Callie did the best she could to support Hahn through her epiphany, but being unsure, or even finding that she sits at neither extreme makes her wrong?
No, Hahn, GTFO.
Opinions and sexuality both sit on spectrums that constantly change with new information, life experiences, and critical thinking. It's a testament to Hahn's ignorance how much she overlooks this fact every. single. time.
Luckily, she's pretty much done with at this point, so she won't be haunting this show or my blog posts anymore.

On a happy note, Jane still has her twosh

Check Yourself

Season 5 Episode 4 - Brave New World

Imma get catty in here for a minute, so if you can't sip the haterade just jump past Hahn's pissy glare.

Erica Hahn has a face I would love to punch repeatedly. Her horrific underbite and jagged teeth, paired with a dour, condescending attitude just makes her so freakin ugly to me.
Ever since her first appearance, I've disliked her. I couldn't quite put my finger on it until this episode, when she barks at Cristina while she moves in with Callie. I cannot stand her because damn near any word leaving her mouth is said in the most offensive, condescending tone possible.
She's a terrible teacher, and approaches anyone who isn't Callie with the utmost contempt. Just, no.

I'm taping this to a punching bag

The only other time thus far I have been this angry at the same behavior is when Hunt spats out, "I don't take orders from civilians." Um, yes you do. He's the attending, which puts him in charge of the situation, not you. Anyone trained and experienced enough to be a Major would know how to proceed.
Such irk, much frustrated.

It's a bummer because the rest of this episode borders on hilarious. Between Cristina discovering Dermatology and Bailey's dead staring at Callie's TMI, I almost forgot how badly Hahn needed some humble pie.

Clever, But Only Sometimes

Season 5 Episode 3 - Here Comes the Flood

The roof
The roof
The roof has leaks all over
We don't need more water, let that motha fucka burst!

I'm so freakin witty.

On a more serious note, Derrick is a presumptuous DICK.
He spends all this time leading up to them moving in together, working slowly to build trust with Meredith because intimacy is a struggle for her, and then goes leaps and bounds without even consulting her! IDIOT.

You gorgeous idiot!

What in the hell made him think she would kick her roommates out? And why in the hell did he think it was a good idea to act on that without discussing this with her? IDIOT.

Time For A Break

I've been inundating my poor facebook page with almost nonstop Grey's Anatomy. Now, if any of you nice people are like Husband and roll your eyes emphatically anytime this show comes up, you probably are in need of a small break from all the delicious medical drama.

Some happy news in This Fuckin' House is an epic trip from Target that refreshed the house. I found a handful of 5x7 area rugs on clearance at a ridiculous, haunt my nightmares if I pass them up, price. I grabbed up all the neutral colored ones that jived with the style of our decor and brought them home. Husband really stepped up with his genius when he grabbed them and started placing them throughout.

At first I panicked. He's an archetype of a man, with little to no concern for decor, and thus far has shown no taste for aesthetics. However, there is an artist within, as he put each rug in places I never considered, and we now have a cozy living room, a dining room that looks much more cohesive, and the master suite is even more zoned into cozy, functional sections. This makes the soon-to-be-wintry-cold toes happy.

If he wasn't surprising me enough, Husband has been pushing me to keep crocheting as a hobby, and whipped out his eye for color again by selecting my yarns. I was seriously doubtful of some of his choices, but I let my own creative juices flow and so far things are looking good. I have a couple twin size blankets under hook right now, and can't wait to share them when I finish!

Good News and Bad News

Season 4 Episodes 16 & 17 - Freedom

Sparkle Pager will heal anything

Seeing Meredith's discussion in therapy about Ellis' attempted suicide is really the first hint to me that Ellis was an incredibly selfish woman. I could see past her keeping Meredith after cheating and demanding a divorce, because she thought Richard would be in the picture and at the time she would have had custody anyway. Hearing of her obviously staged suicide changes my forgiveness though. Who does that to their child? Who puts them through that kind of trauma? It's so wrong.

Cement kid got me all kinds of excited and turned this two-parter around for me.

There's a lot of obvious issues brought up with this story - crushes, bullying, hazing, loyalty, friendship.
And I, almost don't care. I was entirely too wrapped up in my doctor-fantasy of doing diagnostics boner. It gets me all tingly inside when they do episodes like this. I really should just watch those E.R. reality shows, but I love having a medical soap opera hybrid to fill both of my entertainment needs.

Pretty Pretty

Season 4 Episode 13 - Piece of My Heart

Let's all take a moment to appreciate the ridiculously good looking Kate Walsh.

She's also a solid actress. I love how she gets her eyes to emote with her actions. If they keep coming up with reasons to bring her on the show I, for one, will not complain. Woo!

Addison popping in works well as a voice of the audience for all the fuckery up to this point. She pretty much articulates our frustrations with Meredith and Derrick, George's divorce, the almost naive relationship Alex has with "Ava," and plays up the deep inkling we all had about Callie flying the rainbow flag.

But most importantly, Kate Walsh is really good looking.

Your Soapbox is Borken

Season 4 Episode 9 - Crash Into Me

We start off with a really shitty, possibly even ironic situation when two ambulances collide in the emergency bay. I have to admit I had a sick giggle until things got as tragic as they did.

But wait, there's more! There's this fuckin guy, with the most archetypal, poorly developed writing since the asshole boyfriend that only pretended to quit smoking.

Oh look, a neo-nazi, with absolutely no consistency. His partner is a black woman, allegedly his best friend, that he works with damn near all day every day, but yeah, fuck those black doctors, they can't help him. This guy is just so freaking stupid it's literally unbelievable.

There is no way an unapologetic racist, which we are supposed to believe this guy is, would be cordial with Bailey, or about being treated by a minority doctor. Did he think she'd attack him or something? If this guy was true to his alleged character, he wouldn't care how offended anyone was, because he allegedly views Bailey and Weber as lesser beings. But no, instead he pussy-foots around the issue, acting like he's ashamed of himself, only to turn around and try to play off how he's totally fine with being racist.

Shonda, if you're gonna soapbox about something, at least be accurate. Your inability to write about this in a believable way makes this whole story arc impossible to take seriously, and I really wanted to. I loved Bailey's approach to the situation, and trying to "rise above," but again, the meaning is lost when the writing takes away from the significance of the situation. Way to freakin go.

Not Quite Myself

Season 4 Episode 5 - Haunt You Every Day

There's an underlying theme throughout this episode about being someone else, or not recognizing yourself. It's very loudly embodied as a metaphor in the gentleman who cuts off his own foot as a result of body dysmorphic disorder. Shit. Was. Intense.

I couldn't really get behind Meredith's haunting with Ellis. Was she suffering from a lack of closure? Was she feeling inadequate? Was losing Derrick making her realize she really wasn't being extraordinary?

I always have a hard time relating to or even really understanding Meredith's thought processes, so I drew a blank on this episode. I did, however, enjoy her choice of burial site for Ellis' ashes. It was absolutely beautiful.

As a side note, can we all take a moment to laugh loudly at Erica?

"I only sleep with men."

Too Many Angry

Season 4 Episode 4 - The Heart of the Matter

Yeah, this whole story arc was just entirely too juvenile for me to take seriously. I cringed my way through it, but it just didn't sit well with me at all. How is Callie embarrassed after Izzie making such an idiot of herself? Callie did nothing wrong, in any part of this situation. It's just literally unbelievable.

The exercise-crazed lady with an ankle injury was much more interesting. It's an insight into how unhealthy dynamics in a relationship can creep in. A lot of the situation was painted by Callie's perception, looking to lash out at any indiscretions in everyone but George.

I wouldn't say the issues here are necessarily abusive or manipulative, but there is definitely a sense of codependency here. The girlfriend has gone to such an extreme to lose weight for her boyfriend that she has malnourished herself into osteoporosis (and eventually death). At first, this seems like an almost obsessive dedication to health, and even maybe requited, as the boyfriend pledged to quit smoking and get healthier with her - until we catch him smoking. Whatta dick.

 So, how far is too far? What lengths are too much for the sake of your relationship?

If that isn't enough mixed rage, Camille is back for a final time with another recurrence of cancer. Once again, how much is too much? When is it okay to quit? I feel for the poor girl. We all have only so much fight in us, and who wants to face the same battle, knowing this time you'll likely lose? It was a sad, but brave decision on her part.

Blah Blah Blah

Season 4 Episode 3 - Let the Truth Sting

Husband never passes up an opportunity to razz my big mouth. We also have a running game in which I stick my tongue out at him for teasing me, and he attempts to capture it and take it away. We don't need kids, we are kids.

So of course when he overheard this episode, he was amused and horrified at the idea of tongue cancer and losing the ability to talk. He's quite convinced if my speech were ever damaged, I'd go crazy. I suppose he's not wrong, as he's walked in on me many a time filling the silence by literally singing "blah" to myself. It's not that I like to hear myself speak, it's just that I grew up in a bustling, large family. I'm used to some kind of noise all the time, which makes total quiet very unsettling. It's a habit we all have, either leaving a tv on or making our own noise.

This doesn't explain how very much I enjoy conversation. I'm just an amicable person. I like to make people laugh, and feel comfortable. The best way to do that is good old fashioned conversation. 

You're enjoying small talk? Well then how about this fuckin weather?

Oh, you want to get personal? Check out this scar while I tell you the epic story behind it!

You like talking about yourself? Tell me everything! Even if it's boring I'm gonna make you feel awesome.

It's what I do. I talk. Maybe I should be a bartender. A bartender that can sit, but a bartender nonetheless.

Don't Meth Around With Drugs

Season 4 Episode 2 - Love/Addiction

I'd like start by saying, out of all the episodes featuring babies, this one has been the most excruciating to watch. I am not a mother, but only a sister/aunt, so I can only imagine the suffering of you mommas trying to get through all the pained baby screams in this episode. On top of that pain is the knowledge, or more my opinion, that this is another emergency situation that was very much avoidable. I know there are social safety nets, especially for families with children. I find it really hard to believe there weren't any programs available to bridge their income gap.

 

There's so many issues on deck in this episode, but it seems they mostly focus on the drugs. Drugs are bad! At least that's what this story is trying to say. I'm not sure how far I want to get into this issue, as it's a pretty emotional one for a lot of people. 

From what I've gathered, drug use is generally caused by poverty and/or mental illness and a need to escape. Obviously we can't fix poverty overnight, but many of the crimes and related issues of the drug world would be averted if drugs were legalized and regulated. Just imagine how much that revenue would bolster the economy, while keeping users protected from dirty product. Taxing these products in order to fund rehabs and mental health facilities would also clear a lot of the other issues with drug use. Is it a perfect plan? Of course not. We can see with alcohol and cigarettes that there will always be those that abuse, misuse, or let these products ruin their lives, however; the resources are there to help as a preference to punishment.

With all that in mind, how are people still so ignorant about drug production? You would think if the parents had the resources to figure out how to cook and deal meth discreetly, they would have learned that you don't shit where you eat. The chemical components used in meth, as Alex points out, leech into everything. It's surprising that the parents weren't suffering more from exposure, but then they probably don't put everything within reach into their mouths. Such logic, many neglect.

Boys Are People, Not Food

I am seriously annoyed by the way the women at Oceanside treat Dell like meat. He's a good looking guy, and seems to enjoy the attention, but it doesn't change the ick-factor that these women are staring him down like a sexual object.

It's totally inappropriate, unprofessional, and honestly sexist. If the situation was flipped this scene would be super creepy.

On top of all this, we just got done seeing Naomi try to correct Dell for giving her the eye. Hypocritical, much? She even flirts with him, and then somehow is confused when he asks her out on a date later. Get your shit together, girl!
 

Season 3 Episode 23 - The Other Side of This Life: Part 2

Not the Ferry Boat!

*McDreamy Tears*

Oh look, the shit has hit the fan, again. I'm at a point where I spend most of the season waiting for whatever catastrophic event is going to rock everyone's world while spanning multiple episodes. Like, if I could have a compilation of just these events, I would watch them over and over, probably just have them on 24/7.

I'm not sure what's so exciting about watching them triage an incident with mass casualties. I get this feeling of almost catharsis as they sweep through the scene, patching everyone up as they go. What is that about? Is there a word for that? I can't be the only one satisfied by this.

Season 3 Episode 15 - Walk on Water

Sex Isn't the Worst Thing You Can Do

I kind of love how Addison handled the "mystery panties." As a short-tempered vindictive person, I never would have stayed calm long enough to go that far with it. Props, Addy, props.

All giggles aside, there's nothing quite like a trashcan baby, riddled with ridiculous parenting, to kick off a new season.

Once again, where is the logic here? The entire situation was so ridiculously avoidable, for so many reasons, and I feel like ranting about them!
How exactly does having sex make your daughter a bad kid?
How is this still a thing?
I mean sure, as a parent any age is too young to think of your baby having sex, but it's pretty much an inevitability that at some point in their life they will at least think about doing it, and most of the time will. Wouldn't it be better for your kid to be prepared? More and more studies are coming that show information is actually the best prevention. The more access to accurate information and resources for safe sex has directly correlated with a decline in teen pregnancies and sexually transmitted diseases. As a matter of fact, comprehensive discussions of sex and related issues is starting to show a trend for more teens choosing abstinence, or at the very least delaying their first time and being much more cautious when they do.
Why is it so hard to have a healthy dialogue about sex with your kid?
I'm not suggesting in-depth, technique swapping sessions, but just the basics - how sex works and what can happen with emotions and your body. Being so hush-hush secretive about the act just puts it in a mysterious and taboo place, which means most kids are just going to be more curious and try to find answers on their own. Having very recently been a teen, this ends up with misguided discussions among their peers, and usually a pressing desire to actually experience this magical, secret thing. It's a recipe for bad sex practices, and a lot of hurt.

Sexual oppression aside, because if I don't stop there I'm gonna soapbox about slut shaming, let's take a look at Safe Haven Laws. In case you're not familiar, it's a practice that differs from state to state, but works under the general premise of being able to safely and anonymously relinquish an infant at police stations, hospitals, or fire stations. Sometimes religious institutions, in my experience, convents, offer similar protection. The idea is to prevent abandonment or back-alley abortions out of desperation.
Considering that these girls are in uniforms, I can safely assume they go to private school, which means they probably have the funds for an on-campus counselor just for these sort of situations. I can understand that these girls didn't talk to the counselor out of fear they might tell the parents, so I can let that slide.

And one more thing! How is your daughter able to carry a baby to term, and you don't notice? I mean, what the actual hell? These parents are obviously involved enough to discipline these girls into being afraid to discuss sex and the pregnancy, so they're not oblivious to everything.
How are you not around enough for her to manage to go through all that completely unnoticed?

Season 3 Episode 1 - Time Has Come Today